February's pocket

Back and front of Feb's pocket. It really looks nice in person but I'm afraid I was a bit shakey taking the photos so I only got 2 good ones.

I started out with traditional reds and whites and pinks with the plan of creating a whimsical traditional valentine pocket. But I'll be honest - I wasn't really in the mood for much mooshyness. I haven't a valentine this year for the first time in 30 years. My hands kept drawing me away from the reds to the glittery whites and pale pinks. So I went with it. I followed the trails of the lace with the first one bisecting the piece with silver beads and white twisted bugle beads. Initially I had planned the leaves (the purple things) would represent all the things I love, then they wouldn't stay in place so I felt the need to bead till they did (for the most part anyway), so now they looked like they were kind of 'displaced', which is kind of how I have been feeling since the divorce. So the beading took on a life of its own as I beaded the last 6 months or so of my life into this pocket. The twists and turns the dead-ends, the feeling of having a frozen heart, delicate and easily shattered. Within all this is the little bright spots, the butterfly, the 'flowers', the little clear hearts and purple hearts dangling here and there, for the times I stepped out of my comfort zone to walk a little in this new and strange world of being single. And in the center I purposely added a little 'green' to all this glittery paleness to represent the possibilities that are out there and to remind myself that hope is there - hope for a better year, for good times, better health and maybe even hope for my heart.