Monday, June 7, 2010

Working on May

and finding it hard to concentrate some days, so the going is slow. I will be meeting with my new counselor tomorrow for the first time. I hope it goes well. I have been feeling very low lately. I think partly because of all the traveling I did and partly from seeing my X for the first time in what, 8 months.... Even knowing I'm not in love with him anymore doesn't stop the pain and the feeling of loss. Mostly that loss of security in knowing my place in the universe. I was a 'wife' so long I don't know how to do anything else. So I just muddle through the days it seems.

We did go to Winston for their fiesta which was fun, although very very hot. I think I cut the day short for everyone when I had to go sit and cool off. I get heat stroke very easily and I hate it. Anyway we then went to Chloride to see the museum, but it was closed so we headed home. I spent the next 2 days with a migraine. I finally took some migraine meds today and I feel better. I still have so many things to do and so many things to put away... seems to never end. At least I got most of the materials I need to do the repairs on the roof. All in good time.